it was a day of adjustment. today i didn't have my puppy. he wasn't whining in his crate when I got up, all wiggle-waggles--so excited to say "good morning"--ready for the perfect things in puppy life. a bowl of food. humans who loved him. more toys then some children have. explorations outside. barking at birds. chasing the cat. and i sat alone at the computer. . .because it was day without nick. he wasn't curled by my feet, sleeping away the minutes before the rest of the family woke. . .and when they did, he wasn't there to greet them. it was a day of physical stress. a sore throat, my head ready to explode with congestion and TMJ. it was day of cleansing. load after load of laundry, cleaning like a madwoman to busy my mind--so i wouldn't think--listening to a radio drama of The Secret Garden with my siblings. making arugula, brie, and apple-mustard sandwiches for dinner. it was a day of bravery--for all of us. getting used to the silence, smiling more, crying less. even the cat came upstairs--for the first time in nine months. no more running or hiding in the basement for her. it was day of peace. this morning I felt a mantle about me--Jesus covering me. yes, today was that sort of day. beautiful. calm. because prayer works. can it be I have no more tears? can I truly have this stillness in my heart? it seems impossible. but it's there. friends, thank you for your prayers. i can't begin to tell you how the words you wrote, here on my blog, have changed so much in me. how they have refreshed me, brought me to relieved tears, put a smile on my face and a warmth in my heart. i may sound sentimental--even foolish. but it was a day of treasuring--YOU. please, if you can, send me your email addresses--i won't publish the comments. i'd like to thank you all personally. for now, know that you mean the world to me--your support is priceless.
"the LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD." Job 1:21